Bulan Emosi

EMOSI





KARMA ke? wujud ke Karma ni.. what goes around.. comes around..
atau kata lebih mudah.. "macam mana kita buat kat org.. soon or later
kita akan kena mcm tu jugak "

mungkin.. maybe.. berkemungkinan.. thats y aku malas untuk get serious dgn someone..
aku susah nk suke kat org.. tapi bila dh betul2 nk suka.. lain pulak jadi nyer..
so.. untuk move on.. aku move on la.. hehehe.. means get in touch with new peeps ..
tp ada gak yg salah anggap tangkap lentok.. aku pun bye bye..

hmm.. situasi tersebut plak berlaku kat aku.. tp its not the end lagi..
xde bye bye.. coz both xde strength untk let go each other..

sepanjang kawan ngan dia.. hmm... byk betul dugaan..
dia plak.. x penat2 try menyakinkan aku yg dia x bersalah..
aku suke dia.. aku syg dia.. mestilah aku nk pcaya dia drpd kata
orang lain..

tapi org lain yg berkata2 tu bukan sorang je.. malah lebih dr seorang..
so..? kusut jugak la fikiran ni xtau nk caye yg mana..

kejap kejap.. nape aku nk pening.. aku ngan dia bukan kapel..
MALAH.. kalau dia ajak aku kapel pun belum tentu aku nak..
so apa sebenarnye yg aku nak?

aku nak dia.. tp aku xnak kapel.. boleh x?
hmmm.. pelik plak kalau mcm tu.. mcm x siyes plak..

skang ni masing2 ngah dingin..
dia stress.. aku pun stress..
dia stress aku x caya dia..
aku plak stress sbb aku xtau nk caye ke x..

so.. just biar je mcm ni..
kita tgk la kebenaranyer mcm ne..
hmmm...

Bulan Cinta

Bulan Cinta

Hari ini hari Ahad.. dah 3 hari spent masa kat rumah mardiah & mastura .. just like the old time before when i was staying with 'em .. duduk rumah saja 1 hari suntuk .. update fb .. berborak pasal life.. cinta.. agama & politic .. hanya kuar untk g 7e to buy foods n drinks ..

semalam had a very late nite chat with mereka.. tidur pukul 5.30 pagi! talked about apa nak jd dengan dunia kita yg akhir zaman ni n how to improve ourself .. MasyaAllah .. bila bicara soal mati ni.. mmg x tido malam dibuatnya..

itu yg besh bila lepak dgn mereka ni.. byk berbual benda yg berpekdah.. share knowledge in all aspects .. walaupun luaran nmpak biasa je.. just an ordinary girls yg layan lagu2 korea ... but when u can see thru their mind.. they will blown u away..

apparently .. blog ni br ada 3 post so far.. just like i told u b4.. i hv a very bad memory ...

sbb tu last post was about my Raya.. hope semua ok with it k..

for this past few months .. my life + my love life has become more complicated than i ever thod..

damn.. kisah cinta aku x pnah nyer normal.. ada saja drama... its not that im asking for it..

but its just keep on coming ..

i hv had enough to be the kind of girl yg membiarkan saja the guy im seeing date with other girls.. that was my mistake .. on my past r'ship.. i hd put lots of trust in it til to blind to see what is right n wrong.. when the girls want my guy.. i just let it be... but smpai bila..?

when the same situation occur .. now..! perlukah aku membiarkan saja spt dulu atau fight for the love.. damn! uurrghh!! that is just sooo not me.. tp byk kawan2 yg menyayangi aku.. ahli keluarga yg menyayangi aku inspires me to do the right thing..

i hv to be diff this time.. firm + tolerance + wise yet sweet ..

there's a guy.. who i knew him early of this year ..

from someone.. ia nya sesuatu yang tak dirancang pun sebenarnya..

n i must admit that he is hot.. super hot!

when i first met him.. i just cant take my eyes off him..

but semua tu ok je n hilang bila balik rumah.. n lupa terus ttg dia..

2nd meeting.. jumpe lagi dia.. n for sure.. dia tetap menyerlah antara yg lain..

dia sweet talker.. but just dont care... tp mcm biasa.. bila balik umah.. lupe terus dia..

so.. basically i do attracted to a pleasant looking guy.. but itu bukan yg paling utama

dlm my list la.. coz if aku sgt memandang rupa.. on the 1st met itself aku dh menggedik mintak

no. n try to flirt around...

so.. how does actually we became close? so close...

shocker.. he started everything 1st ..

i hv noticed that he respond to almost my status on FB..

he sent me a cute pic of cats .. n start to talk about each other

interest .. so.. who to blame? me or him? neither i guess ..

suddenly i realized that our f'ship does not approved my his friends..

they all keep doing something to irritated me .. n i must admit that

it has successfully affected us ..

i stop believe in him..

always doubt in him..

tho he explained so much..

too bad coz sweet talker just know how to win my heart back..

so now.. i just let it be.. they can say whatever they want to say..

i leave all this to Allah .. if we r meant to be.. it will be...

just taking it slow n follow the flow..

insyaAllah...

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